I need someone to talk to

I need someone to talk to, but that someone has gone,
I need someone to listen, and tell me when I’m wrong.

I need a hand to guide me, through life’s eternal maze,
I need a hand to wipe my tears, on sad and lonely days.

I need an audience for my tales, someone to laugh out loud.
I need someone who understands, I’m not good in a crowd.

I need someone to sit with, and watch the world go by
Someone with whom I’m comfortable, who offers no surprise.

I need my anchor, like a ship, drifting out at sea,
I need the life guard late at night, sent to rescue me.

I need the life I had before, the one when they were here,
The life that passed without a hitch, as long as they were near.

I need to know it happened, the way I thought it would,
I need to know I lived that life, the best way that I could.

I need to know, it all makes sense, although I’m not so sure,
I need to finally accept the fact, that they are here no more.

Happy birthday mum, although you are not here

Happy birthday mum, although you are not here
I feel you very close, I sense you very near.

My daughters would have baked a cake, made a special card,
To celebrate without you though, is really very hard.

We would have gone out shopping, bought a special treat,
Then we would have found a place to have a bite to eat.

I would have sent you flowers, a lovely bright bouquet
If I could send them still, I’d send them everyday .

It makes me very sad, to think of all you’ve missed,
To have you back with me today, is all I’ve ever wished.

I know that all the others, must surely wish the same,
But I can’t share my grief with them, and I won’t show my pain.

With this verse, my lovely mum, I send you my best wishes,
And know that if I only could, I’d shower you with kisses.

I love u mum, I miss you so

I love u mum, I miss you so,
Why on earth did you go,

Why did you have to die,
You weren’t ready to say good bye.

Why did I not save you
Was I not supposed to?.

How could you leave me , all on my own
You know I’m not happy when u don’t phone.

I need your advice mum, but who can I turn to
There’s no one I trust, quite like I did you.

No one to tell me where I went wrong
Dismiss all my fears, make me feel strong.

No one to laugh with, not like we did,
We laughed till we cried like a couple of kids.

A look, a smile, the unspoken words,
All understood, everything heard.

The fact that time passes, does not make amends ,
The questions, the sorrow, it just never ends.

The photos remind me of how it once was,
And then they remind me of all that I’ve lost.

I hope you’re at peace now, your suffering is done,
And know that I miss you and love you dear mum.

A Gift from my Daughters

My daughters sent you a gift today,
Something special that they both made.

A shiny balloon, which they both signed,
And which they both kissed hundreds of times.

I don’t know why they chose today,
I didn’t ask and they didn’t say.

Maybe because, the sun was so bright,
Or the breeze in the air, would help with the flight?

I saw them watching the birds as they flew,
I sat with them and watched the birds too.

I saw my girls whispering, hands cupped round ears,
The eldest took charge, as befitted her years.

I didn’t question their plotting and scheming,
I knew just by looking, the excitement they were feeling.

They rushed back inside, both of them barefoot,
I assured the crushed ants, it would all be worth it!

I sat in the garden, patiently waiting,
Both anxious and happy, I could feel my heart racing.

And then my heart burst, right out of my chest,
My beautiful daughters, did what they do best.

They showed me that they remember you too,
By doing these things right out of the blue!.

My eldest, I know, really does miss you,
My youngest, I’m sure, would squeeze, hug and kiss you!.

We all of us watched, the balloon taking flight,
We followed its journey, until out of sight.

I hope you receive their wonderful gift,
I know it can’t make up for all that you’ve missed.

They just want to show you, and show me too,
How much they still love you, as much as I do.

So reach out a hand, and catch their balloon,
Fingers crossed, it should be with you soon!